I have been doing some remodeling on a clients home in Palm Springs and much of the labor I am doing personally. I will travel down on a Wednesday, stay with my mom nearby and then work from sunrise to sunset until Sunday. I have just recovered from a work week that completely exhausted me and now that Sunday is near I can say that I am finally beginning to feel normal.
The trip before last, I logged over 60 hours in 3.5 days and it’s fair to say I was still feeling the effects of that trip when I went down again 2 weeks later. I thought I would pace myself after coming out of that trip… Take it easy. I was closer to 40 hours in the same amount of time and on the drive home I did feel much better. To my credit, if I would have left it at just that things might have been better, but I had committed to helping some friends light a new studio when I returned and it pushed me over the edge.
After all the yoga and teaching right effort I still have a lot to learn about the balance of what my mind wants and what my body/being wants. How do we know when is enough and when is too much. If yoga was the solution to everything, one might say start in your body and get familiar with the right amount of effort there and that will inform the rest of your life. In my opinion, yoga isn’t the only solution and it proves difficult to always apply metaphors into all aspects of your life.
For example: There is a deadline, you have a set amount of work that needs to be done by the deadline and it’s up to you to do it. Well, the mind says you can have it all done a day early and you might even have time to relax for a swim or two. As the hours go by you begin to have a sneaking suspicion that it may only be one swim or you might even need to stay later the last day to get the job done. Most likely you won’t think of Warrior I in that moment and say “Oh yeah, that’s what I need to do!”
I assume you have experienced a situation like this… I have repeated it over and over. When I had my electrical business I had roughly 600 jobs a year that me and my employees churned through. As the free market dictates a fair price and consistent expectation, a business owner must find a balance in all of that or perish. Well… I perished. A few big jobs that I didn’t get paid for and it all crumbled. That, took 4 years to recover from.
I am nowhere near the 100 hours a week I worked then but I still have the idea in my head that if I think it I can do it. I don’t think this thought process is unique to me and from much of the rhetoric of the yoga/new age community it seems to reinforce that to some extent. Just believe and it will be. Your thoughts create things. The problem, I believe, begins with why we want what we want and where are we placing our expectations.
What is the real goal? Who and what created the deadline? What, if anything, happens really when that deadline or expectation doesn’t get met? How do I know when I need to stop and when that is just laziness? Why are we so scared of laziness?
My guide in finding the answers as of late is listen to yourself. Listen to the part of you that says it’s enough. Try not only going in the direction of bigger, better more. Try pulling back and observing. Whether it’s your yoga practice or your workplace, observe and listen to the little intuitive hits that come up.
If you are consistent and persistent, your level of effort doesn’t need to be 110% all the time. If everyday you wake up and spend 5 minutes meditating and being still, that’s more effective than sitting down for 60 minutes once a week. If we don’t enjoy our experience as we are moving through life then what are we doing? Why are we doing? What is it satisfying?
This is not to discount dedication and diving in deep to our interests; often going beyond what is comfortable is necessary to gain a new perspective. My main point is to look at the prime mover or the purpose of the action. If it stems from inspiration and love for what you’re doing then this article might seem irrelevant. If it stems from a sense of obligation or responsibility I think it may speak more to the point.
Most of us have responsibiliies that are not inspiring and parts of our lives that feel like they take rather than give to us. It is my hope that by practicing observing and then acting on our inner wisdom we can be guided to find a more enjoyable experience. Thank you for reading ~